The focus of this past week and a half has been integration
returning to California from two powerful weeks in Costa Rica
the first week in active wellness retreat with members of my community from the states
and the second week fulfilling a work trade in exchange for my time at the retreat center.
listening to the symphony of birds and insects rising from the jungles.
I ate fresh, whole, plant food
cooked and prepared with love and presence by amazing women
and was sung to sleep by the river below my cabin within the walls of Posada Natura
a jungle retreat center
a castle of healing light
grounding the collective prayer for peace and harmony on the planet.
I sat in ceremony, prayed, meditated, and practiced yoga with a community of true brothers and sisters on a path of consciousness and compassion
oh, and i napped in hammocks
i must not ever forget the napping in hammocks.
Dreams do come true
when we align with what is right on the sacred path
and say yes
and thank you
This specific dream
of retreat in Costa Rica with this community
has been being dreamed into fruition for about two years now
but what its fruition has given to me has been the result of everything that has occurred in these past 4 years
starting with the collection of music that erupted out of me while I was slogging away at my life in New York City
the music that demanded I change course
and go forth into the unknown
to discover the life I came here for.
My time in retreat brought me much clarity, information, and peace
for which words are inadequate to express
but i would like to share just a few tidbits
as a prayer of gratitude for the transformation occurring within myself
and the world.
I have always felt an empathic connection to the suffering of humanity
and to the suffering of the planet and the rest of the plant, animal, and insect kingdoms which has resulted from the suffering and ignorances of our species.
when i was younger, i wanted to “save the world”
was even voted most likely to do so in the silly high-school yearbook superlatives section
i set my sights on big impact and global influence
but over the years, i saw and felt the overwhelm this creates
and the impotence of personal power through such an approach.
I then found myself trying to “save my family”
setting my sights on impacting, influencing, and healing my blood family and soul family
with similar resulting overwhelm and impotency.
guided by wisdom of those that came before
of great teachers and examples and friends
of plant masters and teachers
and of my own true heart
i am arriving in a place of recognition that the work must be done within my own self
within this here skin
that is where the impact, influence, and healing work is required
and there is more than enough inside here to get into alignment
physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
and then to maintain such alignment
and going outside of myself to try to change or fix or help anyone else
is abandoning the arena of my true influence:
my own self.
this is not to say we have no impact on our families, communities, or the planet
quite the contrary is true, actually,
as every moment of our life we are co-creating the world we live in,
but making assumptions about what work other’s need to do
and attempting to do it for them
or judging them for how well they are or are not doing it themselves
in our own perceptions
flies in the face of the sacred teaching of utter humility
and rushing to force or move or manipulate the energies at play in the larger world
only finds us engaging and perpetuating the cyclical energies already at play
and neglecting and abandoning our own selves
and our own realm of power.
the outer world is a reflection of our inner world.
do we want to see peace?
we must end the war within our self.
we must find the places within our own being where we are at war
with our thoughts or ideas or behaviors
find the places within our being where we are at war with the thoughts, ideas, and behaviors of others
and bring presence
we must learn to hold space for our own selves,
our own processes.
we must unify the nations within us
so that we are clear, true vessels of LOVE.
and as we cultivate this vibration
because make no mistake
and as we cultivate them within our own vessels
we must ground that vibration in the earth
and hold that frequency
in the face of any diminishing vibrations that arise around us.
THIS is the way we impact the outer world
THIS is our contribution to the greater wellness and the uplifting of humanity
WE, OURSELVES, are the entry point into the collective, the conduits for offering wellness and peace and healing to the rest of creation
and it can be done no other way.
There is no short cut.
There is no magic button or pill
It requires vigilance of presence within each of us
it requires fierce compassion and acceptance of where we are and who we are and what we carry and how we are able to be, right now.
it requires hard work
and exuberant play
and deep rest
and a heart of service
and great, great patience
for ourselves and all other beings
and it requires trust
that everything, somehow, is fine.
not as a cop-out
or an excuse
or a justification
but as a recognition of a higher reality
a sacred reality
not only hidden somewhere in some spiritual realm
but also rooted here in the world of matter and form
and as we continue to cultivate this
and ground this
we become better and better able to serve as midwives to a new world
and as vessels of the healing love that is the Light of the existence.
Posada Natura is a vision that was started by my teacher, brother, and friend Gustavo over a decade ago
and has been growing since.
A place of interconnectivity with self, Mother Earth, humanity, Life, and the stars.
A place of healing.
A place of love and family and community.
These are his words:
“My mission is to spread a sense of Well-Being and serve as a catalyst for the grounding of the emerging Sacred Reality, rooting the seeds of Love in our land and in the hearts of our family, to live life honoring the ways of Love, Truth, Respect and Peaceful cooperation, reflecting to our visitors the values of a new society.
Further to provide the grounds for Sacred Space for these values to flourish in deep connection and honoring of Nature and its biological truth. My direction comes from within, so my mission is to nurture a container for healing and to encourage and inspire people to shift back to internal guidance with the help of Master Plants, to look deep in their hearts for the Oneness that we all share.
For so long we’ve been opened to the frequencies of fear using our Power to give credibility to its illusions. I want to help to tune to the frequencies that will heal ourselves and our planet and guide our tribe to the future in the stars.
My vision is to attract and expand a Family of Light bearers creating a land base community of Healers, Artist and Lovers, to assist the current and future generations in the transformation that is taking place on the Planet. To generate natural abundance in cooperation with other facilitators to produce unique programs for healing and transformation using the next generation techniques. To develop further the grounds of Posada Natura to reflect a micro village of the future… My vision is based on creating abundance that will allow our team to travel the world bringing home the new discovered gifts from other tribes.. tools to be used and sold at our gift shop to remind us of the purpose of their work and life. To Teach by inspiration…and by offering practical ways to fine tune the human biology to express the highest frequency possible.”
About every 29 years, Saturn completes one full lap around the sun
Which means that about every 29 years, Saturn returns to the place in the sky it occupied at the moment of our birth.
With this return, it brings the energies of time and transformation
and creates a gate for us to pass through between major phases of our lives.
For a few years prior, we feel the energies of this threshold pulling us towards it
and often times dismantling much of our lives and perceptions in the process
in order to prepare us for our transformation.
This past handful of years has done just that for me
completely pulling things apart
flipping them upside down
stripping away that which I had been valuing that was of no value to me
and revealing what is true and real and necessary
inviting me to hold true to these things in the center and let the rest die.
I went to retreat in Costa Rica with the intention of completing my passing through the gate of my first Saturn’s return
and my time there revealed just that:
I made it through.
The work is never done
it only goes deeper
but something is finished.
Something has been completed.
A piece of my journey is over
a threshold has been crossed
with a profound amount of help and support
and I now have access to a greater abundance of my life forces and energies
and a momentum at my back
propelling me into this life I have been blessed with
encouraging me to walk the earth with humility
A path of sustainable wellness is open before me
in which I come back into a harmonious, mutually beneficial relationship with my mother, Earth
not taking more than I need
giving back to protect the abundance for all other beings
and using the handful of gifts and tools I came to this planet with to co-create spaces and opportunities for my tribe to do the same.
Now is the time.
We are the ones we have been waiting for.
Deep bow of gratitude for all the teachers, guides, guardians, friends, family, and tribe
on this side
and the other
that have protected my mind, heart, and body
that have kept me on this path
and have taught me, in turn, how to do this for myself
each day I am blessed with.
Here is the link to the Posada Natura website:
Here is a link to the photo album from the trip:
Peace to all beings everywhere.
ALL LOVE, FAMILY 🙂